A Little Disturbing

This wont be a very long blog as its just a personal observation of mine that occured on DDO today.

So, I went onto DDO today and decided to start a wilderness only character on Cannith. When I went into the character creation screen I noticed the Iconic button and decided to have a look at the classes and stuff.

One thing I find fun in class based RPGs is to read up on each particular classes description. So I went through each Iconic Classes description and was impressed with each of them except for one. The one that I didnt like was the Purple Dragon Knights. I found it to be a little disturbing.

the thing I found disturbing was the fact that the characters background is essentially that they are a death seeker, or put more simply, theyre suicidal. They head out into the world looking for anyone or anything to kill them. I find that disturbing.

When it comes down to things in the game, if Turbine wants to add something thats fine. They added those two tomb thingies for those two guys before I started playing, but thats fine because they were important for D&D players or something. When they added the ribbons & marketplace memorial[DDO]/cloaks[LotRO], I was a staunch supporter for them adding those items because it was a way for players to show support for an event that happened where the people who work for Turbine and their friends and families live.

For me though, making a characters background that theyre suicidal kinda crosses a very personal line in my world. Over the course of my 22 years Ive lost three friends to suicide. When I was 14, me and my brother walked into our Aunts home to see her put a gun in her mouth and pull the trigger. A few years later I spent what felt like an eternity in a deep depression where I woke up and fell asleep every morning and night just wanting to end my life.

Sure, you can tell me 'Its just a game.'. Youre right. It is. Sure, I can ignore the class background. Yes, I realize that, for the most part, the only people who really incorporate class backgrounds into their characters are those people who do that little make believe thing. But even with all that, I still find it very disturbing that Turbine would make a character whos background makes them suicidal.

Now, I know that no one from the Turbine staff who works on that kind of thing is going to see this. I also know that even if one did, they wouldnt give the slightest damn about how I feel about it. Its just the way they roll. I just wanted to write this though to voice my opinion on something that really does bother me in a personal manner within the game.

Thats all I wanted to say. If you disagree, thats fine. I know we all have differing opinions on stuff. All I ask is that you try and understand from my point of view.